we have all been there, we still hate someone for things they have done 10 even 20 years before. we today i have crawled out of that hole of toxic behavior. there is this girl i have hated since high school and thought i know exactly why i hated her, but to my surprise i was wrong. i have been friends with her husband since grade school so she never seem to go away.
long story short. i picked up the phone today and called their house. she answered. i told her i thought it was about time we talked. we are grown women this should be easy right. i"ll admit i was having trouble breathing. but i told her that i' m doing this reinvent myself thing and i felt that holding a grudge against her all this time has held me back from growing as a person. i know it sounds corny but, it made since when someone else explained it to me. i have made a big deal about mistake you make in you past shouldn't define who you are at the present time. so i shouldn't hold it against people for thing they did when they where young and dumb. we talk for awhile and she even told me that she wish things had come to her as easy as they came to me back then. i even think i got the husband in trouble. we figured out that we think he enjoyed us fighting so he never tried to fix it.
anyway i think today i grow up just alittle bit more. my new rule, let the past make you who you are, just don't let it keep you from being who you are.
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